Hurry Up and Wait

I'm waiting. Still just waiting.

The Vet told me that I'd have info by today. I'm trying very hard to be patient because of the holidays. I'm not a monster. But I am struggling with impatience. I called the office today and they said their lab won't have results until Monday now. I understand why. I get it. I don't want to wait though. I want to know whats wrong with my dog, right now. I want to wave a magic wand and have him be in the best physical condition he could be in, but this is reality. as much as I hate it.

I'm forever grateful to the person who helped make the vet visit possible, I'm just struggling with the waiting.

Boomer's health aside, I'm also waiting for things from my doctors for me. My neurologist has decided to try a new medication, since the previous one didn't help much. This one is an injection. So, not a huge fan of that. Especially since I have to inject myself. She says that it should help block my pain receivers and transmitters and stop the headaches before they start, but she also thinks that I should consider talking to the Neuro Surgeon again, which freaked me out a little bit. If she thinks that she can't help with the pain and wants me to talk to him again, that can only mean that she thinks the only real solution is brain surgery, right?

Scary.

My leg swelling issue has also turned out to be something of a cluster fuck as well. Turns out my veins are incompetent in my left leg. Seriously, that is the terminology. Basically this means the the valves in my veins are damaged and weak, so the blood isn't flowing back to my heart correctly. Hurray! The veins in my right leg aren't even connected in some places. I don't quite know how this happened, but my doctor mentioned surgery. My guess is that it's to just remove the veins that are dumb, but I don't really know what that means for after....Does that mean I just won't have blood flow down there? Is it going to eventually kill my legs? Am I looking at a life of wheel chairs and ramps forever? Questions for Tuesday when I talk to her about all this, but it's still on my mind now.

I want to keep my legs, I like my legs.....when they worked.